Where was I

Where was I, what was the light
a dream, I was somewhere, not here.
I was in a shining white light
not to be afraid of,
just quiet and soft.
I didn’t felt lonely,
I didn’t felt lost.

I felt content with this been
no ache, no sorrow, no pain.
I felt so peacefully,
and in a place I would gladly remain,
like a dream it was to me,
then suddenly came reality.

I fainted more then once,
in this state for four times.
Why can’t I be right there?
Just feeling nothing,
just be in a blank state of mind,
I didn’t know.
I wasn’t lost,
I was myself.