That little that big

Unexpected but it exists
you don’t see it
even not with roentgen glasses
It is there and it won’t go away
it gnaws to your soul and you’re getting tired
but you can’t give up
then it will eat you

there is no medicine for
it’s too complicated
it stays for ever even when it stops

this way small this way inconspicuous
almost normal
but it beats a breach in your live
it never heals

but stop now
and moderate
do it how you want it yourself
stop and make the breach not bigger.