Where am I

Burning in hell,
Shining in heaven,
I don’t know,
Where I am.
Love,
And hate,
Now I know,
What the problem is.
I loved you with all my hearth,
But you didn’t seem to care.
Why do I feel so f*cked up?
Why do I feel like this.
It’s a feeling you can’t describe.
Just a feeling,
You won’t understand.
Why this,
And why that.
It’s always the question why.
Why is that?
Because you are to curious?
I don’t know anymore.
Help me!
But you won’t.
You will leave me here,
in this dark hole.
I wrote this,
Just to let you realize.
What you have done to me!