When I cry

Whenever I cry,
i think about you
about how special you were to me
and how much I loved you
I still can’t accept it
and I don’t know why,
god choosed you
I have to forget,
but I can’t
I have to accept it,
but I can’t
I have to talk about it,
but I can’t
it’s too hard,
because I can’t imagine
what life is without you
you have to remember,
you’re my special
and I would never forget you,
however sometimes
it looks like I do.