The girl I always was

I miss you,
I want to hold you forever,
But at one day I have to let go,
I know… but I keep on hoping that you love me forever.
That you can say that I’m the only one.
Smiling so bride,
Sparkle like a star,

But what do I feel inside
You won’t know, I hide it.
Even for myself.
But I have to face it, and it hurts me.
You brooked my hearth, I was falling into peaces.
But still I didn’t dare to look in my own eyes.
I didn’t dare to find the words for what I felt.
And that’s the reason why I didn’t write it down.

I hoped that tomorrow the feeling was gone.
And maybe it would never came back,
But you and I both know that it was just a dream.
I hade to face myself, the person in a corner in my heart.
I was too scared to cry, then I could break and I was always so strong.
Bye girl in the corner,
Goodbye my tears…
Goodbye everything I was scared of.

I don’t run away any more,
I just try to keep myself together.
And just be the girl I am.
The girl who sparkles like a star.
And just want to be there for her friend.
But at one day, I have to think about my self.
And then I can’t think about everything else around me like I always did.
Then I don’t have the choice…
Then I just have to listen to my heart.