Contemplating

I would give you the world,
If the world would give you back to me,
I contemplate how great it was,
How bad it could ever be.
But you were all that was-
In my thoughts, in my mind, my head
And now I’m left with the will to forget.

So I’m starting from zero,
With nothing on my mind but you,
And I have only lived-
Because you wanted me too.
I fear the tomorrow’s that come and go,
Since time has never passed this slow.

If only I wasn’t that naïve and that sure,
If only there was some clearness in this one big blur.
Too young to understand love at all,
Not knowing how to break my own fall.
Too willing, too giving, too forgiving,
Too vicious and too much of it all at once.